i get the same haunting feeling every time when I find something by surprise, that insecurity – that something bad is lying inside a beautiful lie. i know it’s not the same thing. it’s not my past. my past – the naivety that cost deception, i had thrown it all away in a place i will never ever want to regress. but then again, can u really blame it on naiveness? i’d be so tired blaming it all to everything, or anyone. i thought that i had let it pass and gotten very over and living life bolder than that. i can forgive, but i can never expect the consequences. trust the wrong person for the first time, haunted for life.
who knew you could be so positive about things and had it all figured out for one moment, and then letting an innocuous instance fill your mind with skepticism the next?
i wish i could learn to trust with caution and courage again.
girl, i’m not sure but it seems to me you were badly hurt in the past… what i can say is that… i can somehow relate to how you felt in this written post.
true enough, at times when we figured out something by surprise, we gets disturbed and becomes so difficult to forgive and move on. but dear, see it as a test, and it only meant to make you stronger, make you who you are today. miss you